I have been thinking about fear a lot. I get scared when the things I do for my websites don’t work and I can’t figure out why. Actually I get scared a lot. I’m not even sure exactly what I’m afraid of. Maybe it doesn’t matter.
In Chinese Medicine, winter is kidney time and the kidneys are about fear. The positive side of fear is wisdom. Sometimes I wonder if I get all this fear so that on the other side I can come through and be wise! As I work through fears one by one I realize that I do accrue wisdom as I look at my fears and see them for what they are.
Is it really so important if I mess up a little on that website? If it’s down for a short time will that be horrible? What’s the worst that can happen? In life, if I mess up, how important is it? Yes it is my life, but if I still have life, aren’t there other opportunities to allow me to succeed? If I make a mess once, can I move on and not make the same mistake again? Maybe I am being trained for something bigger when I shouldn’t make that mistake. If I’m supposed to do something, the opportunity should present itself again. I can only keep moving forward and realize that I can only do the best with what I have at the time.
Is there any reason to fear when I think like that? It doesn’t mean that I don’t fear but that I can look at my fears for what they are and move forward from there.