Today I am sick. My first thought upon waking was that I couldn’t be sick. It’s not that I had so much to do–I finally have week to rest. Still my thought was oh no. Not sick. I can’t be sick. Then I thought, “But I’ve been eating so well. How can I be sick? This disproves everything I’ve learned.”
I gradually let that go. My final thought was that in yoga yesterday we had done all these opening exercises in the chest that are supposed to strengthen the immune system. In fact, perhaps that is why my throat is sore. Perhaps I’ve been harboring something that has been working for months or years that I didn’t know about that is finally being “cleansed” from my body. Cleansing often feels icky but it’s good to get those things out.
Am I sick? Well my throat is sore. I’m not functioning optimally. I’m tired. Probably. Why am I sick? I don’t know. Maybe I ran into a bug. Maybe I got some warm wind on my neck over the weekend. Maybe I ate poorly a couple of weeks ago and lowered my immune system. Maybe I did something in yoga that is cleansing the chest area of my body.
It is not so bad that I require complete bed rest, though I got some extra earlier today. I might even go back for a nap later. I have a good dinner coming this evening and some good leftovers for tomorrow. I’m not writing as much because I just don’t have a good mind for thinking clearly. I’m at a good stopping point for a few days though so that’s good. I want to see where this journey takes me and how I feel tomorrow.