Perception or Actuality: Does it Matter?

This weekend I was out of town. I tried to minimize going off my GAPS diet but wasn’t able to be perfect. In fact, I was far from perfect and ate more stuff that I shouldn’t than I had hoped I would.

I’m surprised at how horrible I feel.

My question becomes, do I really feel worse than I did when I ate this all the time or am I just so used to feeling better than that? Are these new symptoms things I was just so used to that I ignored them or do I have new symptoms that I didn’t have before?

As I ask these questions, I realize that it doesn’t matter whether I really am worse than I was or if I just think I am due to feeling better in the last month, my reality is that I don’t feel well any longer. I wasn’t feeling perfect before but a lot of my low energy symptoms were easing. I knew I was on the right track. Now I have had a set back and I feel worse. Worse than I ever did or just worse than I had been. My perception is just that I don’t feel as good. I think that’s enough.

I am off to the kitchen to eat some more of my lovely Fab Ferments Kimchi, which I love! Maybe that will help me feel better. And maybe when Valentine’s Day rolls around and I go out to dinner with my husband I’ll remember this set back and make better choices (although I reserve the right to eat Creme Brulee!)

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Bonnie Koenig has been a licensed acupuncturist since 1999. She is passionate about helping people find real healing and real health. In the process she keeps asking about our attitudes towards sickness and health. Only by being clear on what sickness is, can we ever find health.

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